The Heart Sees What Is Invisible To The Eye

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 05:57:17 GMT

I finally know how i feel.
Finally!
i know 100% and ive accepted in fully!
and i want to scream it to the worldd

yet theres this little thing that stops me and i cant figure out what it is?

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 04:34:19 GMT

i am so lamee
guhhh

Wed, 31 May 2006 03:05:45 GMT

Summer is AMAZING

im so relaxed, its like i dont have a care in the world
i love it

so my goal for this summer is to be a good friend, cuz i hate how i go all summer without even talking/seeing some of my friends. So im gonna try not to let that happen this summer

brother stole the phone charger when he left home on saturday. IM FURIOUSSS. haha not really. this has just made me realized how little i use my phone.

My family and I went to san antonio this weekend. SO MUCH FUN. i love my family. They bring me so much joy. I am so incredibly greatful for them. They are my everything.

ok so, im updating alittle bit more now that its summer. Even tho isbah is the only one who reads this. Thats ok tho, i'd rather have one that means the world than the world that means nothing.

Sun, 28 May 2006 17:29:15 GMT

She likes purple,
And conversation,
She likes taking naps in the afternoon.
She likes money,
But she don't have much.
She likes stealing clothes from her sister's room.
She likes Mochas,
But only mint ones.
She likes boys and,
Talking on the telephone.
She likes locking the door when she's home alone.

she knows,
That her life isn't perfect,
But it could be worse.
And she knows,
High school is not the center of the universe.
She's not gonna pay,

She likes people,
Keeping it simple.
She likes the music loud when she's singing, yeah!
She's kinda quiet,
Don't let it fool you.
Cause that girl,
She's got an opinion.
Oh, she's got a secret,
But she's not telling.
And being with her family makes her smile.
She says purple is never out of style.

I wanna dance in the street in my bare feet and,
Jump in some puddles if I want to.
I wanna wear messy hair like I don't care,
Live like all my dreams are gonna come true.
I wanna scream out loud,
Stand out in a crowd and,
Walk and talk with Jesus 'cause I need to.
And my social insecurity is running far away from me,
Take a piece if you want but,
I'm not gonna pay.

She knows that her life isn't perfect,
But it could be worse.
--Wideawake

So when my brother came home he introduced me to this song
and its absolutly PERFECT for me
basically its me in a nutshell
excpet for the fact that im not that fond of purple, otherwise "she likes purple" is officially my song
haha

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 19:21:18 GMT

gosh i hate this
ive officially been replaced
i feel like i dont know my friends anymore
two of the worst feelings ever
expecially when you feel them all at the same time
its not fun
not fun at all

it doesnt feel like christmas time

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 22:18:51 GMT

what would you do if
1. i died:
2. i kissed you:
3. i lived next door to you:
4. i started smokin:
5. i stole somethin:
6. i was hospitalized:
7. i ran away from home:
8. i got in a fight and you weren't there?

Wut do you think about my:
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:

Would you:
13. Be my friend?
14 Keep a secret if i told u one?
15. Hold my hand?
16. Take a bullet for me?
17. Keep in touch?
18. Try to solve my problems?
19. Love me?
20.Date me?

Have you ever:
21. Lied to make me feel better?
22. Wanted to kiss me?
23. Wanted to kill me?
24. Broke my heart?
25. Kept somethin important from me?
26. Thought i was unbearably annoying?

And more:
27. Who are you?
28. Are we friends?
29. Descibe me in one word:
30. What was your first impression?
31. Do you still think that way about me?
32. What reminds you of me?
33. If you could give me anything what would it be?
34. How well do you know me?
35. When's the last time you saw me?
36. Ever wanted to tell me somethin but couldn't?
37. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what i say about you?

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 01:40:49 GMT

i havent used my livejournal in such a long time..most people wont even read this because they dont know it exsits..
i wanted to start up again because for some reason live journal reminds me of happy times.. like last year when i used it i was just alot less jumbled up inside and i guess it could be that im not letting out my thoughts. who knows?

well school is deffinatly stressing me out
i never do my homework and im becoming the slacker i promised myself i wouldnt be this year.. ha liek that would happen.
on top of that.. all the people who are my actual FRIENDS..seems like they've forgotten me

basically i feel alone

the cold makes me want to cuddle with someone which just reminds me i have no one to cuddle with...

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 23:32:41 GMT

if you read this,
even if i don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me. (please)
it can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
then post this to your journal.

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 23:51:34 GMT

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

jelousy

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 03:23:15 GMT

the prettiest people do the ugliest things

thats from some kanye west song..he knows what hes talking about. i mean when you think about it, kinda true huh, or maybe its just me being jelous of those "prettiest people". i wouldnt doubt it since jelousy always seems to find its way back to me no matter how hard i try and keep it out of my life. is that normal?

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 02:00:38 GMT

i was lookin at taht last entry of mine and all i gotta say is.. NASTY...haha

even tho you know hes hottt..:/

well i just got back from volleyball.. i was alright..i couldnt pass .. coach told us we sucked.. the usual.haha, my mom says that he does that cuz "he doesnt want us to stop trying since were already pretty good so he just keeps telling us were bad so we'll try harder? ..he hasnt complimented us once this year... it will be amazing the day he does. haha

progress reports came out today and its official.. im getting stupider. i need some one to like keep me in check and like make me do my hw and study and stuff. i need like a study group or something..any takers?

well today i found out what ppl really think of a certain someone.. its sad. like i could tell that they didnt like him or "us" i guess.. but i thought it was all in my head. i guess not/

boys are wierd. hard to read and confusing. end of story.

well.. thats all for now!
longer update later!comment..?

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 02:03:07 GMT

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haha omgsh lucky me! you know your jelous!
haha..

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 00:26:01 GMT

It's a better place
Standing high upon this mountain
I've seen your face
Full of the light that holiest height can show
Blessed hand is why you you've given
But you've been given all you'll ever need
To know

So walk down this mountain
With your heart held high
Follow in the footsteps of your maker
With this love that's gone before you
And these people at your side
If you offer up your broken cup
You will taste the meaning of this life

Well it's a common ground
And I see you're all still standing
But just look around and you'll find
The very face of God
He's walking down into the distance
He's walking down to where the masses are

so walk down this mountain with your heart held high

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 05:11:03 GMT

Gosh i lovee music. i never really realized how much i would miss music if i didnt have it. every time im feeling bad n i go n listen to some feel good music it always makes me feel better.
its like taht song.. do you believe in magic

if the music is groovy it'll make you feel happy like an old time movie ill tell you about the magic and itll free your soul but its like tryin to tell a stranger about rock n roll..
no matter how hard you try
your feet start tappin and you cant seem to find how you got there so just blow your mind...
if you believe in magic come along with me we'll' dance till morning just you and me and maybe if the music is right ill meet you tomorrow so late at night and well go danceing and youll see how the magics in the music and the musics in me..
do you believe in magic belive in the magic of the young girls soul believe in the magic of rock n roll believe in

the magic that can SET YOU FREE

kinda silly but when i think about it those lyrics are soo true. its the magic that can set you free.

anyways--moving on.. lately nothings been happenin
usually i dont update so oftenly between entrys but i couldnt sleep and i was extremely bored so i thought.. why not

my parents are painting thier room so im guessing im going to end up helping them with that tomorrow and for the rest of the weekend
woo hoo..
im thinking about painting my room red?...maybe. i want a change cuz my rooms starting to get boring..any ideas how to change it up alittle?

im becoming a really big procrastinator. its really bad cuz ive had liek 3 extra days to study and i havent even started... oops.im gonna work on that. no more procrastinating.. i wish it were that easy

WoA.. that was scary. i was listenin to this playlist .. pretty loud and outta no were that PIMP song by 50 cent came on (not my choice of song..dont like 50 cent) and its unedited and my parents were in the roomm.. haha.. good thing i have quick reflexes.lol

Lately ive felt like ive been "drifting" from my really good friends n that really makes me sad. there like my best friends and i havent been able to really talk to them or hang out with them in a long time. these are friends i cant stang loosing. gosh....
alright welll.. this was one longg update
im gonna go get a popsickle to posibly help my throut <sp?.. xo-ash comment!

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 00:49:02 GMT

guh ive been sick for the past two days.. so that only means one thing-a TON of make up work. woo hoo.

comment and leave-
1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint to who you are

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 19:15:41 GMT

i havent updated in forever...

well its now 2005 crazy that another year already past. when i think back on 2004 i dont really remember anything specific.. and i think its cuz i lived my days simply to get them over with.. and i guess thats one of my "resolutions" to start "siezing the day" or whatever. im gettting ready to go see the incredibles with my sisters for the SECOND time... its a really good movie tho so i dont mind seeing it again. I went over to Adri's last night and we stayed up till 5 haha.. it was like 3 and we went downstairs to get some tea and it was opened but i didnt know that..haha so when i pulled it outta the fridge it spilt all over everything. haha another smooth move by me. it was fun tho. unfortunatly tho i have to go to school tomorrow so.. ill definatly be tired. plus my whole sleeping schedule is completely messed up so i probally wont be able to sleep tonite.. o well. mk well i gtg shower n all taht fun stuff..
longer update later-

xo-ash

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 06:53:23 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS ((eve))
ahh i love christmas time... it puts me in such a good mood and high spirits. its deffinatly my favorite part of the year. the presents arent even a determining factor.. though that is a plus. ha. so i havent updated in a while..but surprisingly ive been busy. usually over break i spend alot of time at the computer but not so much this christmas. im glad. i saw christmas with the kranks today with brandon.. it was good! funnyyy stuff.k well its pretty late and i need my beauty rest...MErRy ChRisTmAs!

((i know.. sorta a pointless update..ill try for a longer one next time?))
MErRy cHriStMaS!
X0-ashh

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 22:47:12 GMT

i got this thing from isbah..

You Are the Helper

2

You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.

You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.

Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.

You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.

What number are you?

anyways.. moving on.. today was absolutly horrible.. for embarassing reasons id rather not say. But for one reason-we had to run. ALOT. woo hoo my favorite thing to do.:/haha. well offseason started today im in for a reall JOy.

my tree fell down.. very sad story i know..ha

well this is a pointless entry. but hey comment anyways n make me feel special!

These things are so FuN--

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 05:33:38 GMT

Dear Ashley,

You are really _____. You should _____. We need to go _____. After that we can _____ because I wanna____with you. Remember that time we _____? That was so _____. Maybe tomorrow we can _____. You are my _____. i _____ you!

Love, _______

P.S. _____.

comment n fill it out por favor!

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 01:34:19 GMT

i havent updated in a while..

its thanksgiving break.. thank goodness!
yesterday i went to the movies with mandy, judson n lacey. it was soo much fun! haha judson had a little "run in" with the police.. haha. and we played in the rain! it was funn!.. a good way to start out the break!

Club volleyball started and its making me all stressed out.. im having second thoughts about if its goin to be a good thing for me or not.Every year club makes me become this person that i HATE becoming. Like when i come home im so aggravated that it reflects the way i treat my family, who deserve to be treated ALOT better. Im gonna try working on that part of my life. I dont want to look back at my behavior and be ashamed.

ah ive been so stressed lately that not having school is so relieving. i actually feel alive for the first time in a while. Lately its just seemed like the same thing day in and day out and nothing exciting happens. Thats why last night was so much fun cuz i got to be with some of my best friends and just hanging out with them and acting retarded (like we usually do.haha.) made every thing "bad" almost.. dissapear.
"you'll be my vacation away from this place"

thats what this last little part is for...
My FRiEndS-(you know who u are)-
you all are so awesome and i dont know where i would be without you. You've always been there for me and i know i can always count on you to *BrigHTeN* my day. thanks for being there for me! u all are amazing and im so greatful for you!

well.. if i dont update until then.. HAPPY THANKS GIVING! have a great break!
im outt~
--ash

hOmeComing

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 19:26:12 GMT

Homecoming was last night! it was fun! the only real problem was it was soo hot! there were too many ppl in such a small space so.. i was all sweaty n nasty. buttt.. i danced this year! that made it allott more fun! Another bad part was when the slow dances came on.. bleh.. ((only since i was dateless) ha..Hailey came with us (laceys friend from cy falls) she was reallyy cool! me n manda hung out with hailey more than we did with lacey.. it was kinda funny cuz hailey wasnt even "our friend" or whatever, but now she is. n it was fun cuz my sister was there and i danced with her and her friend shwan which was fun cuz shawn would like do a little dance and then we would do it.. it was like "shawn says" (instead of simon says).. we were being silly. it was fun~Before the dance we had a little garage sale or whatever.. i got some mula$$ from stuff i sold so my mom took me to get my hair done! i was so excited! even tho the lady who did my hair wasnt very "expierienced". i sat down in teh chair and she was like.. ive never done this before so this will be a learning expierience. i was like.. OOO BOY:/ haha thats reassuring eh? PLUS she just moved from russia so she didnt speak very good english so i couldnt understand a word she said. i just smiled and nodded whenever she said stuff. lol
anyways.. theres the update on h/c!gotta go eat so..
leave lots of comments~
xo-ash

Back up

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 04:33:20 GMT

i went on a run tonight! i feel so accomplished!hehe

I havent updated in a while.. so this ones gonna be prettyy long!
our friends from canada were in town this weekend! it was soo much fun! ah i love them! Its so good to finally get to see ur best friend again after 3 years!We went to the baylor football game and they actually won! it was awesome! after they won we rushed the field and took down the goal post... it was great! I needed something exciting like that to happen.. life was getting boring.

anyways i wont go on about all the little details about what ive been up to lately because i know that bores people so ill just get right to the point..

"dont make anyone a priority when your simply thier option"
--- i hate being the back up plan... "hey umm *they* ditched me... so you want to do somethin". thats basically saying.. "well if they were available i wouldnt be asking you to hang out, but there not so you wanna hang out". i reallyyy dont like being the back up plan.....

... anyways
homecomings this weeekend! yay! im so excited! it will be fun!.. i hope?:/

k well thats all for now.. its late! it wasnt as long as i expected.. ill update later!
comment please!
x0 *ashley

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 20:05:58 GMT

wake up to purity

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 02:50:31 GMT

" ive got all taht i need right here in the passengers seat
and i cant keep my eyes on teh road , knowing that shes inches from me. "
ahh that song is soo sweet! i wish guys were sweet like that! ahh i would die if a guy sang that song to me! wont happen but.. i can dream cant i.lol

anyways.. today was a reallyy slow day.
i woke up at like 1:00.. the joy of No school.lol
then i felt really bad cuz i just slept practically
half the day away. After i woke up, i cleaned. And
then cleaned some more.. woo hoo. Around 7 my mom
and i went to payless and i got some homecoming
shoes! im soo excited, they're so cute! except i dont
have a dress to go with them yet but.. that will come.
lol

"life goes by really fast and if you dont stop and look around once and a while, you might miss it"
--ferris bueller.
thats how ive felt lately, times been going by soo fast. its crazy. i need to wake up and look around and start LIVING instead of simply waking up each day and saying "lets just get this day over with". I want each day to be better than the one before, and thats what im going to start working towards, even though thats practically impossible
"if what you did yesterday seems important, then you havent accomplished anything today"

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 02:57:48 GMT

Real quick update of today:
school was good!same old same old. After school we played langham.. and lost.. so that puts us in third? i think..?anyways we play creek on tues so come n support us on our LAST GAME OF THE SEASON. its really sad cuz this season has gone by so fast and now i regret not getting to know some of the girls on my team better.well after the game i went to chipoltle with my mom and we ran into her boss and her 10 year old daughter faith. I talked to faith for a while... i remember life as a 10 yr old,so much less complicated. Your biggest worry was wether or not you were gonna buy or bring your lunch. o how times change.. lol.

"Worrying does not rid tommorrow of its trouble, it rids today of its Strength"

During english We were reading the oddyssey.. fun fun..lol, so i was just lookin around the room and i found this poaster that had that quote on it.i absolutly love that quote because its so true.It really got me thinking. I need to work on not worrying so much and just take each day one by one and live it to the fullest.
"life is like a coin, you can spend it however you want, but you can only spend it once"
---how are you gonna spend urs?
think about it....